sayin’ good-bye to all the shit from 2009.
It’s funny when you live with your relatives and get to a point where they finally get to know you but then you realize they’re that old fashioned and that religious or (weighs with his hands) more so.. they just feel, at least from your perspective the way they come off, that you’re soo bizarre or out there. (shrugs) i dunno. I think being outta me comfort zone, me comfort zone being within accessible proximity to me friends and the support i get from them, and being… by meself and with people who should be what i and me mates feel a family should be, it’s given me a lot of time to reflect and also to just… learn to let go of a bunch a shit. Which actually, me friends/brothers Jordan and David have been trying to help me with while we were living togetha. I think being stuck in the position i’m in, for now, i’ve had to confront it, and then actually let it hit me, that these were things that were neva’ gonna change or get any betta’ than they could be. So yeah; just lettin’ it go. Bitting me tongue till i can get some work and be out either with me friends or, if need be, maybe i do, just out by meself for a while. On the up side though I’m feelin’ betta’ about me sexuality and also I think i’m startin’ to get a better sense a humour. Which reminds me, i need to update me voicemail message. Remember Mrs. Doubtfire anyone?
(southern hick voice) AAhhhh! Leyla, get back in yer cell! don’t make me get the hose. (sweet voice) Hello?
sepia tone will be submitted in a bit.
oh, and the book in front of me is Brian Froud’s World of Faerie.
the hot bloke on me notebook is a model from EnglishLads.com
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